Anthony's Journey to Life

Day 624 - Investigating something

So today I asked one about something. They reacted as if it were odd/unusual, even threatening that I ask about this. Why, because it is rare to investigate things, to ask questions. So doing so can be taken ‘personally’ – when in reality I simply wanted to know something, and know about something. Seems pretty basic, right?

So through this, it just adds to the point that most are happy, or just know to never ask, never question, and to accept blindly what we are told, what we are showed, everywhere and everywhen.

Obviously, this is why we MUST change. We MUST question, we must INVESTIGATE, we must LEARN. And we must be WILLING to accept that things that we’ve learnt/known of in our lives MAY not be the truth, may not be helpful, may not be what is best for all. And this is the most difficult part for people, to know one has lived a lie, or if not, a lot of lies, but this is fine. It’s okay that it has taken you 20 years, 50 years, 90 years to come to this conclusion. It does not make your life a waste, no, it makes your life worth it for actually questioning and taking the plunge into the unknown, it shows a fuck load of character to be willing to look elsewhere, to look at a source that is not common amongst people, that is not as of yet popular, that some would say is very left-field, very odd, and of course it is classified as this, because ANYTHING NOT in line with the same shit we’re fed in life is going to labelled as ODD, as FUCKED, as WEIRD, as DANGEROUS, because we don’t WANT to believe that we’ve been lied to, that we’ve not been living as what is best for all, and of course the people behind the scenes feeding us this shit don’t want us to wake up to the truth of life, of the way we’ve lived.

It is surely apparent/clear to you that we’ve been lied to by the media. It doesn’t matter if only ONCE. Do a tiny bit of investigation and you will find this. Even the slightest hint of lie, of manipulation, of control – should be the awaking within you to NOT trust what is being said/showed to you. If it is happening once, then it is happening elsewhere and/or everywhere, you just gotta read between the lines.

Stand by your investigations. Don’t let anyone/anything deter you, is what I say. People will tell you not to investigate, that it is fake, that what you’ve been told/shown is the truth and nothing but, but and lol...when you breathe in, breathe out...many times, and then realise where you are, where WE are as humanity, LAUGH, because this is hilarious, what we’ve become, what we are and have been – killing eachother, stealing, abusing, the lot. What type of life form is born here to do any of this? We are born to fuck eachother up in some way, shape or form? No, we’ve simply been pitted against eachother/life to feed into the pockets of some.

Stop the abuse.

For your sake and the sake of others, investigate DESTENI. Be willing. Stop the lies within you. Because believe me, this shit makes SENSE. I am yet to run into anything Desteni related that does NOT make sense. But again, you must investigate thoroughly. Don’t read a paragraph and then stop. Read a whole article for example, listen to a whole interview. You don’t have to do any of this all in 1 sitting, but I mean when coming to a CONLCUSION, read/watch/listen to everything first, if over days/weeks etc. Don’t point fingers/come to conclusions before you have concluded something yourself and can be honest about this/concluding something yourself. Thanks.

Friday, 16 December 2016

Day 623 - Another

Person A wants me to come along with them so I can meet Person B. Person A and B are very close to one another. Person B really wants to meet me. Person A does not mind so much, but would like me to meet Person B.

Then there is me lol. I have no interest at all in meeting Person B. Not to say that I dislike them or anything like that, there’s just no interest. Person B merely wants to meet me because Person A knows me basically, and wants to also know me, that is Person B’s reason. I couldn’t care less who Person A knows and then want to meet them based simply on this fact.

For me, it’s more like, well sure..if Person B and I are to come across one another by coincidence, then cool lol. Right now it seems more of a requirement to meet Person B, where I’d much rather it flow, be natural in the sense that it happens after time/when for example Person A and I get to know eachother more. So I see/well, believe that this is all happening too fast, really. Where I’d much rather it slow down, take its time, form naturally (if it does) etc. So just giving it time before all these what I call ‘extras’ take place.

Saturday, 10 December 2016

Day 622 - Subtle energetic moments

Energy can be so subtle within us. I’ve spoken to people about self-forgiveness, about the mind, about the physical. Energy here is basically linked with the mind and what can direct us to participate within emotions, feelings, thoughts, fears etc. In other words, any energy is not a healthy thing for our physical bodies in any way, shape or form, plus it is not needed in any way, shape or form.

So, I’ve spoken to people who have basically said that they are fine, they are already not directed by any energy whatsoever. I beg to differ. From walking process/understanding this myself, energy can be SO SUBTLE, that it takes many writings, and a LOT of awareness to even realise this energy is coming up within us and directing us. So what this means is ANY SINGLE DIFFERENT ROUTE one takes in any given second, in any given moment that is ‘off course’ so to speak of what we were doing in that moment, that is a red flag situation and the evidence of energy coming up within one.

This can be in what we say/don’t say, how we move/don’t move, what action we take/don’t take etc. So I can safely say that if one proclaims that they are not at all directed by energy, they are incorrect, because we all are. And in these subtle energy-directed moments, it can change a whole lot about us and thus who we are in relation to others/life.

This is why it’s so necessary to walk process, walk back to life, walk back to our physical forms as we were when we were born, before we were programmed to be this and that, to fear this and that, to think this and that, to feel this and that. Until we have walked this process and can safely say we’re back as our physical beings, then as I said, any energetic movement/direction within us can fuck us around and make us say/do things that will compromise ourselves/others, and that cannot be if we want a world/society/a people that is best for all in every way, shape and form – simply.

So realise that what we are now is NOT how we were born/meant to be. When we were born we were fearless. We took risks. We challenged ourselves. We grew. We evolved. We learnt by trial and error. We weren’t afraid. This is what we must get back to. And only through a process of return to the physical, can we do this.

And yes this is done through self-forgiveness, through consistency, through precision, through a fuck load of tough times, too, because again as I have witnessed, there are a lot of difficult times that one must rise up to and conquer in this process. It’s not easy. It shouldn’t be easy. Because if it were easy, then there’d be an issue. There are layers amongst layers amongst layers of patterns, of programming, of brainwashing within us all, so yes obviously it takes a long time, dedication, consistency to break these and bring ourselves BACK. Do yourself and the people/life around you a favour. Be example.

Tuesday, 6 December 2016

Day 621 - Support for sake of support?

Someone that I would be considered ‘close with’ started a group/page. Usually, that meaning, as someone as the mind/directed by, I’d support because I want to see those close to me do well + I also feel obliged to support them because they are again, considered ‘close with’ me.

Now I see no reason to do this. Of course in reality there is no obligation to do anything, nothing for the sake of 2 people being close or whatever. It really should ONLY come down to myself here. So simply whether I like this group/page/see it as what is best for all. That should be my ONLY criteria.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that my ONLY criteria for doing ANYTHING should be if I see it as best for all/something I like/something that can help others etc, thus without IGNORING or bypassing this for SAKE of supporting another because of labels and within these labels, apparent ‘closeness’ and within this feeling obliged to support because of these ‘closeness’ labels within my mind.

I commit myself to be my OWN person, my own vessel, my own body, my own. Because this is all I am in reality. Everything I do can be seen by others and thus they will act accordingly, same goes for me, so it’s simply about my starting point of doing ANYTHING, and NOT EVER because of WHO or WHY.

I commit myself to remove these ‘closeness’ labels as the mind as ‘obligation’ I believe I must partake in for sake of ‘closeness’ labels as the mind and obligation.

I commit myself to act to every single thing on an individual level so that I am simply here with it/something and then act accordingly as what is best for all/that I like etc.

Saturday, 3 December 2016

Day 620 - Vulnerable

Definitions: exposed to the possibility of being attacked or harmed, either physically or emotionally.

"we were in a vulnerable position"

(of a person) in need of special care, support, or protection because of age, disability, or risk of abuse or neglect.

"the scheme will help charities working with vulnerable adults and young people"

So here, the general consensus of one being vulnerable is of negativity. I can relate to this too as only seeing this word as negativity within my life, that being vulnerable can be scary, terrifying, it is threatening. Though this word recently came up where I saw that it can be helpful as well. Helpful in terms of being willing/open, allowing myself to experience new things in life, because that does in fact require a level of vulnerability.

For example, going to a gathering that could be only for a ‘certain type’ of person, and thus one going into this gathering is being possibly vulnerable, but then it’s also going in as example, example for instance that ‘certain types’ does not have to be an actual thing because we are obviously all equal.

So I now see vulnerable as willingness, as opening, as trying, as new ground, new scenarios/scenes, allowance.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to be vulnerable in terms of being willing to try new things/be in new places/positions as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe vulnerability to be a negative thing associated purely with fear, weakness.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see vulnerability as an act willingness to change self, to learn/grow, to explore, to become what is best for all.

I commit myself to put myself in vulnerable positions and thus without the thoughts prior to the vulnerable position of fear, of fearing what might happen, future projections.

I commit myself to try things. I commit myself to do things, things that I’ve never done before, things that I do fear as the mind, because being vulnerable here is showing myself a willingness to actually change myself.

I commit myself to be vulnerable to/for others as exploration, as allowance, as willingness, as trust, as growing.

I commit myself to get past/overcome the initial ‘difficult’ moments/times as the mind within and as fear, future projections, what will/will not happen, embarrassment, making a mistake.

I commit myself to see, realise and understand that through living vulnerability, I am being willing.

Redefinition of vulnerable: Being open, being willing, giving things a chance/shot, being open/willing to learning, to growing, to expanding, to evolving as what is best for all.